Back here for rants...
I know it's ironic that I'm trying so hard to be happy but yet these attempts make me sadder than ever.
I don't know if my depression is recurring or I'm simply just overwhelmed and need the space and time alone.
Sometimes I just want to run away to a place with nobody so I can just be by myself. Without any outside or societal influence. But I know that's just wishful thinking cos I'm not all that brave and eager to throw myself out of my comfort zone either.
It's perhaps just school, skipping school, feeling stupid and out of place in school and at home that are getting to me. All the negative thoughts and feelings. I don't really know how to effectively manage them. Or perhaps I don't want to manage them cos I feel like suppressing them robs me of authenticity.
Maybe it's just me and my quarter life crisis.
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